scars on the outside are easy to see..but what about the ones on the inside?

at least the scars on the inside CAN sorta be fixed right? but the ones on the outside may stay with you forever. Its a lesson. A lesson that one shall learn. LOL thats cs at work today, i accidently burnt my arm on the oven, stupid me..but at least now, i shall remember to NEVER do it again. cs it hurts haha.

I need to finish my assignments, there are soo many due man, i really dont wana fail this year..im actually gonna try and do good. :) It will be tough, but its something im gonna encourage myself to achieve. lol.

Have a nice weekend everyone :) byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Is it possible to not judge anyone at all..?

I dont think so, as much as you tried, you cant really stop yourself from judging anyone. The best you can do, is judge someone, but theyre positive, nice judgements? Everyone picks favourites, fact of life. Do you know what it feels like, to be the last person picked?

In team games, your always the last person being picked, who knows why..
In a pack of skittles..you pick the one's you like first. unless you eat them all at the same time LOL.

what a beautiful day..

....for 15 kms of walking :)
I feel proud to have finished walking, considering im not the type of person who usually does exercise, i love walkathon..it was fun :) Sarah and I, took the last couple of steps into the gate, put our arms up and screamed YESSS! but then we realised, we still had to walk down to the steps LOL. It was hilarious. :L

Im tired, but i love that feeling, i feel good man. Im so glad that i ended up coming, cant wait til next year! :)

Its so stupid sometimes, how its not what is being said, but who says it.. Its irratating, annoying, retarded. If someone "cool" says it, its considered fine, once someone who's "gay" says it, its automatically used against them and turns into something big/major. ARGHHHH problems are only bigger when you let them become bigger..

Currently excited for:

WALKATHON!

cant wait! even tho we have to walk 15kms and im so butt damn lazy, i bet its gonna be worth it and i'll feel good for doing exercise. Prince Sera and I had this awesome idea to have a picnic :) so YUMMMMYYYYY! im so gonna get fat, but oh well :)

there are so many things i dont understand..I dont like changing, a lot of things just become a part of my life, and its hard to just suddenly change that. I know some things are probably better for me to just cut them out, but its just too hard too hard to let go. When i think of a reason why they should stay a part of my life, i cant really think of any, but instead i think of excuses. BUT, WHAT IF? :S

decisions, decisions, decisions

what to do and what not to do?

I dont know, im so crap at making decisions, maybe its partially the case of me being a pussy and too scared to accept whatever outcome there is. I dont want to face the bad, why would anyone?

I wish someone coulf guide me through every step of my life, tell me what to do. But, once i face reality, i realise thats not possible. They may think thats whats best for me, but i dont know that, and neither do they.

But enough said, i love my life right now, and i wouldnt wana change it at all :)

i havnt blogged in a while..so now once ive started blogging again, im blogging a lot..lol.

First of all, i wanted to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY RHI! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! :)

and now i just wanted to say, sometimes its not the things that you do that make you happy, but its who youre doing it with..it's the simple things that make me smile and laugh. Good memories :)

Sometimes i just wished that..

..all the effort that i put into things ACTUALLY paid off.

I know i shouldnt be expecting things, cs i know i tend to be left empty-handed. Like for this maths test for example, i tried so hard, put in all the effort, thought i had i this time, finally going to get the magical 90 which ive been aiming for, for a while now. But no..it just didnt happen, some people get it easy, they dont need to put in as much work as me and still get a good result. But this isnt a sign of giving up, i'll just try harder for the next one. :) I think ive learnt not to care about certain things as much anymore. Thought i would be excited to know that Gurpearl is human as well, and that he DIDNT get 100% again, but when i found out it was just a meh.. I guess i shouldnt get excited over Gurpearl getting shit, cs he's still better than me, wouldnt even call that shit anyways..

Seeing people fail doesnt make you feel better..Putting people down wont make you a better person and most of all, the reason why youre putting them down is because you cant hack your own life so you wana ruin someone elses to make yourself feel more superior. People who usually beat you suddenly do worse than you, but you shouldnt feel good because you beat them and you didnt think you could. You beat them cs they had a bad day, not because you did good. NOTE TO SELF: Dont rely on other peoples mistakes to become pushing force!

School actually doesnt seem that bad so far this week..I know its only been 2 days and ive got a tonne of assignments. But i just feel so carefree ad happy..but yet there's this one thing that i dont understand. AHAHAHA makes me laugh kinda actually, guys just seem to have split personalities when theyre around me, the one who im with by myself and the one who's acting differently when there are others around. I just get this feeling of embarrassment. Maybe im just thinking too much now..ah dont think about it jess :)

"Always expect the unexpected"

Always think...

...before you say or do, put yourself in the others shoes.

Sometimes words come out of your mouth, and you dont realise what it could do. What will be the consequences, the ramifications. Sometimes its too late to go back. Dont let these chances take over you life, try and not let it happen.

But what if thats just how you are? You never think before you say..it's just natural?

"They may forget what you said or did. But, they will remember how you made them feel."

People put others down to make themselves feel better, or it's just simply the actions of jealousy. You dont have what they have, so why not make them feel like shit. Sorry Gurpearl, i dont hate you, im just jealous of your geniusness towards maths. In a way, i wish i could be like you. lol seriously... :(

gosh nigga

LOL SERA :) i swear we do such weir things together *not sexually - - LOL anyways, all the random wanna-be nigga talks and lolly wars. youre soo much fun and i love you heaps :)

Just because..

it's the littlest things in life which make you smile... =)

So, well for sport today, the other school forfeited, *DUH! cs theyre scared of us! so the whole group of grade soccer decided to stay at school and play AUSTAG! LOL louise - - *where you pull the tag btw. AHAHAHA anyways..love you man, although she did score 2 awesomeee tries :)

OKAY SO POINT IS, i was watching the guys play, and they just seemed so serious, so intense, so INTO the game. while us girls, were mucking around..screaming for our lives lol. I guess girls will always be girls. It's always the littlest things in life which make you happy, which make you smile and laugh. Maybe its the people i was surrounded with. But then its always the little things that make you upset, pissed and angry. WHY DOES THAT HAPPEN? i mean logically it doesnt make sense..but somehow it does as well? WTFFFF ! :S ah im confused, but i guess sometimes i like it that way.

"Doesnt everybody want to fall in love?"

WOW!

okay, this may be lame..but i thought of a joke, and its dedicated to the very awesome sera..
OKAY HERE IT GOES!

Q: What was the name of the pirate?
A: ser-arrrgggghhhhh!

AHAHAHA ROFLMAOOOO! sorry, this made me laugh :L

OMG GUESS WHAT DAY IT IS?!

ARRRRRGHHHHHH! omg finally sera is growing up!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERRAAAA! another blog dedicated to you and your existence :)
I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH BABE! 15?! seems old, but yet youre still young :D

have a great day, and i love you and omg i saw your vid on blogspot = = oh so very cool, verry sera like lol, i bursted into tears :( I LOVE YOU PRINCE SERAAAA!

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY SERAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! ;)

If today was your last day

What would you do? I know a lot of us take things for granted, you dont know what it feels like til youve lost it. You may think your life's shit right now, not getting what you wanted, but think back and you'll realise that it may have been better not having it than having it and losing it. Cause i would. We all reminisce about the past and dream about the future. Whats going to be along the road standing there right before our own eyes? We dont know, who knows if there will even be a tommorow, sometimes events happen on rare occasions. I think its a sign.

Why is it that someone decides to change for the better and everyone finds it weird? Honestly, i know i find it weird when someones being particularly nice to me, it feels strange..but in a nice way. Dont judge a book by its cover! This is now my new life motto, Im gonna ditch the old insecurities and assumed opinions. Instead embrace the love around me, cause I can learn from everyone and anyone, they all have this unique aura surrounding them.

Nothing in life is 100% guaranteed, so is death inevitable?