I know i shouldnt be expecting things, cs i know i tend to be left empty-handed. Like for this maths test for example, i tried so hard, put in all the effort, thought i had i this time, finally going to get the magical 90 which ive been aiming for, for a while now. But no..it just didnt happen, some people get it easy, they dont need to put in as much work as me and still get a good result. But this isnt a sign of giving up, i'll just try harder for the next one. :) I think ive learnt not to care about certain things as much anymore. Thought i would be excited to know that Gurpearl is human as well, and that he DIDNT get 100% again, but when i found out it was just a meh.. I guess i shouldnt get excited over Gurpearl getting shit, cs he's still better than me, wouldnt even call that shit anyways..
Seeing people fail doesnt make you feel better..Putting people down wont make you a better person and most of all, the reason why youre putting them down is because you cant hack your own life so you wana ruin someone elses to make yourself feel more superior. People who usually beat you suddenly do worse than you, but you shouldnt feel good because you beat them and you didnt think you could. You beat them cs they had a bad day, not because you did good. NOTE TO SELF: Dont rely on other peoples mistakes to become pushing force!
School actually doesnt seem that bad so far this week..I know its only been 2 days and ive got a tonne of assignments. But i just feel so carefree ad happy..but yet there's this one thing that i dont understand. AHAHAHA makes me laugh kinda actually, guys just seem to have split personalities when theyre around me, the one who im with by myself and the one who's acting differently when there are others around. I just get this feeling of embarrassment. Maybe im just thinking too much now..ah dont think about it jess :)
"Always expect the unexpected"
i shall not put u down nemore ms. tang.
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Have a cry... What did you get for your maths test? :/
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